Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Gilding The Lily

Percy Holloway always looked forward to spring time. It was the highlight of his year for his hobby. He had got first prize in the flower show again last year, in spite of the intense competition.
Percy was well known for the colours of his exhibits, and everyone wondered at the varieties he achieved. The jet black rose of last year had caused a sensation. He caught Fred Perkins trying to snip off a piece, but instead of being angry had presented him with a cutting.
Percy knew that Fred would have no success because Percy was a cheat. Percy did not see himself as one; He was just a little bit more devious than the rest. He had seen his fellow competitors perform a number of nefarious deeds, and some said the sales in the florists would double in the days before the show, for example. He knew all about Fred, and his ways. He had spotted the movement of the upstairs curtains in Fred's house, and had caught a glimpse of him sitting there with a powerful pair of binoculars. Percy had spent the day preparing a special compost, knowing he was being watched. All Fred had managed to get that year was a measly 4th
prize. Our Percy was infinitely more cunning than that!

Percy had never forgotten his school days. Of particular fascination had been how they could take an ordinary flower, add a little dye to the water, and transform the bloom to something nature did not intend it to be. Later on he had gone to university and studied biochemistry. A Civil Service post had followed, supposedly doing work on plants that would resist radioactivity. In reality Percy had carried his own experiments for his own satisfaction.
It became so easy. A little pinch of this chemical, a little dash of that one, and let nature do the rest. Yes, true, the results were a little erratic, but it was usually possible to produce something different each year. He would spend hours in the potting shed each day, often forgetting his meals, until Gwen would come and remind him.
This year was going to be particularly memorable. One of his experiments had produced some startling results. The plant had remained sick and weak all summer and developed no flowers. He had eventually thrown it onto the rubbish heap. It was Gwen who noticed it growing, after it had survived the winter unattended.
“You know, there's something awfully peculiar about this,” she said. “You had better take a look.”
As they bent over the plant, it was obvious that something strange had occurred. The colour, texture, and tone of the new leaves could not fail to inspire curiosity. Instead of being green they had acquired an odd metallic red sheen, and the stronger the plant had become, the more it gained the appearance of polished copper. This was uncanny. It was not a mere resemblance to the metal, but a convincing substitute for it.. Once the plant had flowered Percy realised what he had done. If any one else had seen it, apart from himself and Gwen, then they would have described it as unreal. Choosing the appropriate moment he transferred it to the shed. By golly, he had really done something this time !
“This will knock 'em dead in the next show,” he told Gwen.
Over the next few months he tended the plant carefully. He did not dare let a word get out about, and so he set up lamps in the shed. Fred was watching of course, and when they spoke, tried to discover what was going on.
“Wait and see, “ was the only answer given.

When he saw Fred peering through a knothole into the shed one morning Percy moved the cupboard and stuck a photo of surgically enhanced Silvia Lamb onto the back of it. Maybe this was why Fred came back a few more times, and he smiled to himself about it. As the day of the show approached he became more excited about the sensation he would cause.
He always left the arrangements to Gwen.... she knew about that sort of thing. She would choose the right vase and attend to the arrangement herself. It would be easy for her this year with only a single bloom to display, and so as usual he let her do it.

He was careful not to go to the show early. He liked to arrive after the judging and then he would be able to bask in the glory for a shorter and more intense period. With a carefully calculated casual look on his face, he strolled into the marquee. He could see Fred among the chattering crowd and so he walked nonchalantly over to him.
“What , no exhibit this year Percy? That's not like you. “
Unable to grasp what Fred meant he looked across at the displays. With horror he realised there was no sign of his precious bloom. No vase with its gleaming treasure among the other flowers.
“Wondered what you were doing with all them lights an' stuff,” Fred continued blandly, “thought it was a big year for you again.”
Unable to speak, Percy thrust his way through the throng and frantically searched among the flowers for his prize exhibit. There was no sign of it. Instead of glory, all he was nothing. No congratulations, no self satisfaction, nothing. Triumph had become despair.
He found Gwen with the ladies at the cake stand.
“What happened? Didn't you bring it. It's gone, what ever....” The questions came flooding out in a jumble.
“Of course I did.” She replied. “To the secretary, yesterday, of course.”
He knew there was some mishap. Gwen would not have let him down. She looked at him, knowing she had to calm him down.
“Go and find it, it must be somewhere, it must be a mistake.”
He broke away and almost ran out of the tent, and began scouring the show ground for his exhibit.
He would never have gone there normally, to the handicraft section, but it was there he found his flower. It was there among the prize winners. He picked the card up to read the judges comment.
5th Prize. Although impressed with the workmanship, the judges feel it displays no individuality or artistic sensitivity, and is more of a facsimile of the real bloom.”

This story of mine was first published in "The Astonished Hill". new rural writing Ross-on-Wye. Red Earth Books. 1998. ISBN 0-9532535-0-3 :



Tuesday, January 16, 2007

CRYSTAL FINGERS



Half exhausted, we enter the palace of Madame Nature. We are five warriors, strangers to this world. We are grey, and slimy, and warm. We slip past the crystal fingers reaching from the walls to clutch at us, and into the Room of the Pearls. From the floor rises the collection of the Penis of Time. The curtains are red, brown, and sometimes green and blue, with all the softer shades of these intermingled with them. The white cloaks of the fallen lie draped across the pink and grey boulders. They lie, cloaks over cloaks, swords over cloaks, the fallen over and under all. Sometimes they match the colours of the curtains. Our breath hangs in the air.
In this world no sun ever rises. The night is the same as the day and there is sparse and unchanging warmth. There is life but deeply hidden. We tread carefully past the fallen swords and over the crystals and draping fabrics. At every touch the fragments of the fallen tinkle downwards into an unknown. Like in a cathedral, we are welcomed by bells. This world can never be the same. It is the day of the invader. A new year-January 1st 1977.

To the Memory of Laurence Bailey

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Blackies Wholesome Family Recipes

Welcome to Blackies latest monthly selection of “quick to serve” recipes. Whether you are planning on flying abroad for your holidays or stopping at home, here is a short selection of scrumptious recipes that will feed you and your family.

Sun Warmed Dew Fresh Lobs.
Hop off down to your local Lawn for this mouthwatering recipe. It is a firm favourite with all the family. If you are a busy single Mum or Parent, a few mid morning helpings will see you through the working day. Sun warmed dew fresh lobs are a must for the early bird.

Fresh Green Cabbage Caterpillar.
Another firm favourite here .Your local organic horticulturalist is probably the best source for this delicious and attractive looking recipe. Easily digested by the young and old alike, this meal provides a ready source of protein combined with easy mastication and rapid digestion. Surely the pick of the crop.

Tender small lobs.
For the keen hedgerow gardener there is nothing to beat this meal. But be warned, preparation can take some time and is the key to success. This recipe can be a real life saver on those snowy and frosty winter mornings.

Half Mashed Grasshopper.
Spring and summer is the usual time to get obtain the best supplies of these. Listen out for the sound of your local lawnmower and be sure to hasten along. With hungry mouths to feed, you can be certain the neighbours will be over to get them once the word gets out.


Stone Turned Younglob.
This recipe has been kindly supplied by Robin. Be warned though. It takes some organisation and initiative to get the ingredients for this one. Be prepared for some waiting. Opportunism is often the best method to obtain them.

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Of course we mustn't forget the Vegetarians among us. Here is another selection especially for you.

Fresh Green Dandelion Leaves.
The ingredients for this delicious spring recipe are easily obtained everywhere. It is often accompanied by a side dish of young green dandelion seed.

Young Garden Peas.

It can be tricky to get the best supplies of these wonderful ingredients, and if you do, you will surely offend the gardeners. But be careful, the best time is shortly after dawn when no one is around. Should you get caught then be prepared for the worst.

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Second Sight

Photo and Artwork by Talcum using Gimp 2.

Second Sight.


Emily Thomson could see bridges. In her world of blackness she had discovered mathematics, music, and computers. She was a tiny frail woman, perfectly formed, with dark lustrous hair. You might not have noticed anything different about her, until you gazed into those misty coloured eyes with the unusually long mascaraed eyelashes. No bright earthy shades of natures colours would look back at you. No blues and greens, just the restless, shiftless gaze of the blind.

Emily Thomson was married. To another engineer. Theirs was a partnership of body and design complementing the mutual talents. Tom was supposed to be handsome, but Emily could not tell that, she could feel his arms and the love he gave. She could not see but remembered the wedding , designed so that she could touch the fabrics, smell the smells, feel the flowers and listen to the music. The flowers were black, her dress was black, the roses were black and everyone wore black. But she could touch the roses and feel the redness, and touch the dress and feel the whiteness. She could smell the flowers and the people with her, and she loved cake.

“Lets have a look at those eyes”, said Mike Williams.

“You know we can do something for you now. Don't you?” A moment of uncertainty about his meaning entered her mind. “ You know, we think we can do a transplant”. He paused a moment.

“I mean give you someone else's eyes. Oh don't worry. They will be perfectly good”.

“ Look- I'll be frank with you. We have been carrying out experiments on animals for the past 5 years, and after a bit of a dodgy beginning we have discovered how to get an almost 90% success rate. This means that we can move forward to trying the techniques out on a human volunteer.”

“I guess you are hinting that I might be your first victim”, she said. There was a slight emphasis on the word “victim”.

“I do not think for a moment that you are going to be one of the 10% failures. I think I have chosen someone who I can help and also who offers me the best chances of maintaining a positive attitude to what we have to try. Do you remember Richard Lazenby?”

Yes, she remembered Richard Lazenby. The murderer and rapist. He had abducted and killed 2 girls. It had been a shocking trial and all the way through those months he had protested his innocence. Marcia, one of the girls, was her flat mate at University. The questions - “ Had she seen anything?” The police had failed to understand the totality of her blindness.

It was Tom who had kept her sane, Tom had been a friend to both of them. The death of Marcy had left a hole, a wound, followed by a scar. Tom had filled it in, and then in time it had faded.

Without question, they had found Lazenby's semen inside one of the girls, and 10 years later they had executed him. There was an idea that he had not been alone and that he had a helper. It was never proved and never mentioned in the trial, apart from a brief reference to someone else possibly involved and never caught.. In the fullness of time the execution of Richard Lazenby had passed without comment. No dramatic appeals, just an acceptance of justice to come.


“ We have kept his eyes alive for 6 years, frozen, using our new techniques. You have a good tissue match. Will you help us?”. It was a question immediately impossible to answer.

Over the next few weeks she discussed it with Tom and her friends. “I am not sure that I can go through this. I have always been blind.”

“What if I have this done and I am the 10% ?”

“Will I see for a brief moment and then return to blindness? “

“Will I build hope on the chances of success and be met with failure? How would I manage afterwards- on a promise given and lost? I've never sought to be changed, nor think it possible 'til now.”

“It isn't for you Em, not just for you, it's for everyone after”.

“I'm just a Guinea pig” she replied .

“Yes but he has probably done this to hundreds of guinea pigs, and you are the first human to try it on. Trust him Em, he knows what he is doing. Think how it will change us afterwards. You might be able to be independent, drive a car , and live a normal life.”

“I did have a normal life, “ she answered him, ” until now. Having eyes to see through isn't normal, at least for me it isn't.”

Acceptance was inevitable. Not for herself, but for the next person, for the next people.


Waiting rooms are always the same. But for Emily, no year old magazines, TV listings and dessicated plants. She felt a touch on her shoulder and the voice of Mike Williams asking her to come. She held his silken hand as they walked down the corridor.

“This will take many hours of surgery. We have to join the nerves.”

“When you wake up you will be paralysed, we cannot allow you to move. We must wait while the nerves grow and unite, and then you will see. Don't worry , you'll be connected to a ventilator. We will breathe for you, we will feed you, we will care for you.” There was so much. Too many questions and so many answers. She would see the dawn and dew on lacy cobwebs.



Gradually the senses return. A hole in the fog that widens. The sound of machines, the click from the ventilator as it returned for the next cycle of air to her lungs. Her limbs felt like weights and she tried to move and was unable. She could feel the bandages around her head and and the pads of cotton wool where her eyes had once been. The days and nights were still as one. She could tell what time it was. It was days when Tom came. Days when there were more sounds and voices. She could hear distant traffic, there was a world continuing out there. Nights were relative silence aside from the relentless cycles of the machines, and regularly the nurses would come and lift her limbs and move them gently. She could feel the fluids dripping into her arms, the coolness fading away upwards as they mixed with her blood. Tom would bathe her lips with a sponge and she could taste the sweetness of the water.

“It will take a little longer.” Mike told her. “ We must let it heal itself before we can move to the next stage. We'll have you off this ventilator soon."


Was it vision? A row of yellow patches stretching to the distance. Two dark and fuzzy shapes under them. Was it a dream? No, she was awake! “At least I think I am.”

“ Damn.When will I be able to speak? When will they let me move?” She only had her own thoughts. She would lie there waiting to be touched, to feel a more tangible contact with the outside.


The vision was persistent. Like a silent video on replay. Every day it was getting clearer. A long road with sodium lamps and two girls walking. Then trees and something going on.

The long road with the street lamps and two girls walking. The car headlights picked out the colours of the clothes they wore. Two white ovals showed as they turned to see the approaching slowing vehicle. The blonde man wound the window down as they came along side. The girls stopped and she could see their lips moving. Conversation.

The long road with the street lamps and two girls walking. The car headlights picked out the colours of the clothes they wore. Two white ovals showed as they turned to see the approaching slowing vehicle. The blonde man wound the window down as they came along side. The girls stopped and she could see their lips moving. Conversation. The blonde man got out. One of the girls sat in the front seat. The blonde man joined the other girl in the back. Then the trees all fuzzy and distorted.

The long road with the street lamps and two girls walking. The car headlights picked out the colours of the clothes they wore. Two white ovals showed as they turned to see the approaching slowing vehicle. The blonde man wound the window down as they came along side. The girls stopped and she could see their lips moving. Conversation. The blonde man got out. One of the girls sat in the front seat. The blonde man joined the other girl in the back. There was something about the girl Emily recognised, diffuse, intangible and abstract.


The trees. A woodland. A clearing or a track. The girl was leaning against the car shaking her head. The blonde man looked angry. He grabbed her arm and was twisting it. His right arm swung in an arc as he back handed her in the face. He grabbed at the neckline of the top she was wearing. The fabric ripped and her breasts were visible in the lights. The blonde man paused.

She was sitting there crying, begging and pleading.

The blonde man had the tights in his hand and he was twisting them and he wound it round and round and round her neck. She was struggling and the blonde man pulled and pulled and pulled.

They drove away. Leaving the two bodies half buried in the leaves. The blonde man had short hair and the beginnings of crows feet around his eyes. He had a tattoo. A female shape intertwined with the coils of snakes.

There was a room with the whole of the wall mounted with a mirror. There was a couch with straps and an arm rest set at right angles with the same straps. There was a glass topped trolley with tubes and a box. It reminded her of a sparsely equipped hospital room. It was tiled and white and there were men in uniforms with holsters and heavy pistols. And the vision would fade.


Every day the video became more persistent. The same freeze frame shots and grim re-enactment.

At times she was free of it and then she could think. “What is this? Who is this? What is this?”

Then it came to her. Within this darkness she could see. Outside of the darkness she would see with a dead man's eyes.


She could hear the footsteps of Mike Williams and Tom, and feel them by her. “We think it is time to release you. We need to bring you back into the world again.” She knew it was Tom who took the hand without the drips and tubes.

“You have done well. Not long, just a small prick in your hand.” He wiped her hand with a swab and she felt the sting from the needle. He had his fingers around her hand holding the syringe firmly with his thumb as he slowly pushed the plunger inwards. She could feel the fluid entering her body.

She wanted to breathe, but the machine maintained its control, forcing air into her lungs. She tried to rip at the tubing in her throat but her hand was gently restrained.

“Good. You can move again. That's what we wanted to see. Just relax and wait a moment.”

There was a click and the machine stopped its relentless pulse. She could feel him taking something away from her throat and she sucked in a big lungful of air. Mike was still holding her other hand as she lay there. He ripped quickly away at the binding holding the drip tubes in place and withdrew the needle. She wanted to speak but somehow words couldn't form.

“It won't be long now. I think..... I think we will let your husband remove the dressings over your eyes. You havn't seen him before and it will be the event to welcome you back.”

She was gently lifted into a sitting position. She could feel Tom unwinding the bandage, round and round and round. Intermittent shafts of light escaped past the loosening pads of cotton wool. The padding fell away and she could see her legs stretched out in front of her. “So that is what colours are”, she thought.

“Look at me." said Tom. “ Tell me what you think.”

She looked at him, taking in the blonde hair, the slight hint of crows feet around his eyes and the small tattoo, of a female shape intertwined with the coils of snakes, that was etched into his upper arm.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

WORDSWORTH SAYING

I wandered lonely as a cloud
o'er fields and dales and kirks.
And there on yonder mountain top,
a wind electric works.

I cycle gently down the roads,
the quiet trails and lanes,
but hanging in the bluest sky,
the tracks of all the planes.

A walk down summer river banks,
salmon, newts, and shags.
And dangling down from every tree,
are fifty plastic bags.

I'm standing on a wind swept cliff,
among the puffin chicks.
Looking downwards to the sea,
approaching oil slicks.

I'm in the densest woodland,
a song from all the birds.
And by me, from the mobile mast,
a million needless words.

The same old tale is everywhere,
in everything you do.
The futures bright or Orange.
Do you believe it's true?

LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING ELSE.
TO MAKE YOU UNDERSTAND.
WITHOUT SOME DRASTIC CHANGES,
YOU WILL DESTROY THE LAND.